Why so serious?
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I am ugly.
I can't do anything better than her.
She's perfect.
I'm not.
He only wants my body.
He doesn't actually care.
I could play along.
There is no harm in that.
He bought it.
I can get used to this.
They think I'm serious.
This is just a game.
I won't let him hurt me.
I'm not changing.
I'm changing him.
He hurt me.
He didn't mean it.
I want him.
This is fine.
I won't do it again.
I promise.
Stop stressing.
Just stop.
Why so serious?
This journal of Mandy J is anything but lies. The horror of her past, and the circumstances of her present foresee the future as we know it. The love she's never felt will determine what she does now. A story of past meeting the insanity of the present will open your eyes of those who see the world as a throne for the despair(especially the ones in love).
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WARNING
This book may be mature to some audiences. Readers discretion is advised.
This is a book written in journal form by a young girl and her past. First reading it through, it might be a little difficult to understand fully. Sorry, that's just my writing style. So let me explain as much as I can at the moment.
The first chapter is the prologue. Each chapter will have a date to help you understand when things happened and what the character is trying to explain.
In the prologue, she will talk about future journals. Those are the following chapters and, ultimately, this whole book. They will all be journal dates leading up to the present.
Please, do not copy anything from my story.
This book goes into depth in some very gruesome and horrific events that are reality for some. If you are uneasy by anything, it's your decision to stop reading this story. Not my problem. :)
Please comment on each chapter on things you like and I will always be open to positive feedback and corrections or opinions! Thank you for putting interest into this story and enjoy!
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