Chasing Shawn

"Shawn, I like you. You know that. Why are you avoiding me? Did I do something wrong?"

Shawn's shoulders slumped, and he let his head fall back while sighing. "Yes, you did, Cynthia. You told me you liked me."

"Well, I can't help it. I like you, a lot, and-"

"That's the problem, Cynthia!" he yelled, "I have a girlfriend. And I love her with all of my being! How do you not understand that!?"

My breath hitched as he scolded me. His words braught tears to my eyes, making my vision go blurry. I quickly removed them with the back of my hand, not wanting to show my vulnerable side.

"But, the other day. We kissed, and-"

"No, you kissed me, Cynthia​! I don't like you, got it!? I love Melissa, not you. And that kiss? That kiss is not worth anything. That kiss doesn't compare to the many I have shared with Melissa. That kiss doesn't compare to a two-year relationship. You don't compare to Melissa, and you never will!" he yelled.

I stood there in a frozen state. How could he say that to me?

Tears automatically formed in my eyes again, only this time, they actually fell.

I didn't make a sound. I only let the tears fall as I silently cried. I was trying so hard not to brake down right in front of him.

But, I couldn't.

I pushed passed him, making my way towards an exit. I didn't care who saw me in the state that I was in, my appearance didn't matter.

I ran out of the school, and ran to my car. I got inside, and that's when I broke down.

I rested my head against the steering wheel, sobs coming out of my mouth freely as I cried a river.

Was I not as smart as she is?
Was I not pretty enough?
Was it my personality? What is it!?

But, it didn't matter anymore. I was done chasing after someone who didn't like me and didn't appreciate my presence.

I don't like Shawn Greene, and it's going to show.