Am I Worth It?
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This is a story about developing body positivityand self-love. This is a story about a girl's struggle with body dysmorphia and bulimia, as well as drug abuse. There are points in the story which are very personal to me as well.
*Trigger warning* because this story lets you see into the mind of a bulimic. Please be wary if you are triggered by this and anything related.
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Hey y'all,
Do you ever find yourself staring at your reflection in the mirror, scrutinizing every possible flaw on your body?
I do. I'm guilty of it... doing it every day. I pinch my stomach, my arms, my legs, even my freaking neck. I want the fat to go away and disappear, glide off my body so it won't stick to me and make me disgusting.
Ugh. I think it's time to go on a low-carb diet again and run miles. Otherwise, I can't achieve the goals I want.
Maybe this year, I can have the body I aspire to have, the ones models in magazines flaunt; one that everyone envies.
Well, I guess that's it for today. Il try to check in daily (or weekly) with you guys on my progress!
Love ya,
Ms. Nobody
[entry :: January 3 2015]
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