Convulsions

Suddenly I'm being pushed on to the wall behind me with my arms locked above me. His arms are holding me tight and I loose my breath as I realise how close we are.
I can hear his raging heart and I'm sure he can hear mine.
He looks into my eyes as if he can look into my soul and I have never been this afraid of what might he find it inside.

I'm afraid but I'm excited at the same time. My laboured breaths are reaching his ears and the tension seems to thicken.
"What am I going to do with you, Elena", He rasps. He closes the distance between us and reaches out to my exposed collarbone.
As I feel his feather light kiss on my shoulder and he lightly nips that area, my all senses are suddenly hyper alive.

But I can't seem to stop that one thought in my mind. That nagging feeling behind in my head.
Guilt.
"St..stop", I say.
"Why, I have waited too long for this. You should have been mine for long enough already", He groans in my neck all the while nibbling that area. I'm sure I'm going to sport a hickie tomorrow morning.

"I want..I want you to" I try to mumble in the hopes that he will listen to me.

"That's right, go on honey. Tell me what you want, so I can give it to you. Tell me that you want me to ravish you, the same way I have wanted to", He whispers in my ear.
"No..sto-stop, I'm not HER" I finally manage to take out the words out of mouth as my foggy brain clears out a little.

All to sudden I'm free from his arms and he has this forlorn look on his face and the guilt flashing bright on it.

"And, you are not Him", I whispered in the dark room.

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This was just an excerpt from the book.

This is my first book...so yeah, please give it a try, and let me know your beautiful thoughts about this book.

Warning: Very mature content, requires reader's stability of mind, to understand because it touches on very serious topics.