Heavy Hearted | Phil Lester x Reader
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"I felt feeling of finality wash over me. It was as if this was meant to happen, as if I had known in the back of my mind all my life that today would be the day and this was where it would be."
Trigger warnings: self harm, suicide, suicidal thoughts, drinking, depression, death.
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