The Diary of Complications
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Last published Mon, Apr 17, 2017
This diary is personal and the content may be found triggering by anyone who becomes easily upset by or is vulnerable to subjects regarding mental, personality, depressing, and eating disorders. Please don't read this if you're looking for something to encourage negative effects to either your lifestyle, body, or mindset. The soul purpose of releasing this publicly on Wattpad is to express my emotions and to hopefully gain or share an understanding of how I feel with others. Now, without further ado, here lies the story of both my downfall and recovery.
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