My Self-Righteous Suicide

Abandoned by my father, giving me abandonment issues.
My family deserting me, giving me no need for social interaction.
My sister dying at a young age, robbing me of a chance to be a big brother.
My brother having Autism, making it more difficult on my family.
Always moving around, never allowing me to make friends.
Abused my my mother's ex boyfriend, scarring my view on humanity.
My first ex breaking my heart, leaving me with the pieces to fix.
My second ex cheating on me, giving me trust issues.
My parent's marriage falling apart because of me, giving me an insatiable guilt.
Yeah, I'm a cynical person. This is why, and this is how I cope before I commit the final act.