No "what if's", "buts" and "shouldn't have's" were uttered the ultimate moment that Alice Knox's older sister changed every future plan the pair had by announcing her teenage pregnancy. With an already tarnished reputation, the arduous task of not saying a word proves harder than it seems.
Several "what if's", "buts" and "shouldn't have's" were uttered when Alice happened to find the journal of Elle Lancaster, her old friend from over ten years ago, and also, missing. The deeper she seems to venture through the journal, the more secrets she uncovers towards finding out about her friend's unsolved disappearance.
Many "what if's", "buts" and "shouldn't have's" were, and still are being, uttered all the way through these events, however, after Alice managed to diagnose herself with a case of immortal hiccups. Because, for goodness sake, how is she supposed to cope.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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