A State of numbness
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Last published Wed, Apr 26, 2017
I am hollow. I am nothing. I feel nothing.
The world doesn't stop for me, it keeps going, time never stops. It seems that time's sole role is to just tick away as I and many others continue our sorrow filled excuses of a life.
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this story is for mature readers only - contains suicidal thoughts, severe bullying, mental problems and may contain references to self harm.
if you feel you are not mentally ready for this book please do not read.
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Dedicated to all those children who are both physically and mentally bullied. To those children who feel as though they are trapped in a world of chaos and feel alone
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