STUCK IN PAIN (UNEDITED)

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"Minahal mo nga ba ako? Mahal ko?" Biglang tanong niya sakin habang di mapigilan ang sarili na hindi humikbi.

You can tell in his eyes the pain and trauma I inflicted on him. I don't deserve you, my love. You're too good to be true. I can't keep you. Mas masasaktan lang kita kung pipilitin pa natin to.

"Dawn.. please answer me!" Calvin said and his eyes were pleading for answer.

Hinay hinay namang tumango ako sa kanya ngunit di pa rin makatingin ng deritso sa mga mata niya. Mahal ko siya pero walang patutongahan tong relasyon namin dahil mas masasaktan lang naming ang isat-isa kung pipilitin pa.

"Pero bat ganon?" Naiiyak na tanong ni Calvin.

"Ang sakit mo namang magmahal" Pagak siyang tumawa kahit humihikbi.

"Sana 'hindi' nalang yung sinagot mo. Kasi mas masakit pala yung 'oo' na mahal mo pala ako pero ni katiting di ko manlang naramdaman mula sayo." Calvin said bitterly making me numb.

"You c-cant can't love me in the dark, can you?" At inangat ang paningin hanggang sa magtama ang aming mga mata.

I shook my head. "I don't think you can save me..." I replied making Calvin devastated because he knew what i meant.

His love for me isn't enough to save and pull me out of the DARK.

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