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What Am I Thinking

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Time 17m

I have many unanswered questions that will never be answered, they will always be asked but then brushed off as the world moves forward. And yeah there might be those people that dwell in the past wanting to know more but all they'll get are rumors, stories, lies. Seeing as I am not on topic as usual I will stay on path and get to the point. I Saturn will give you a glimpse inside my brain, what I am and have been thinking, what I want to change, what I want to keep. But most of all what I am like. You don't really know a person until you are that person and we can only be ourselves. People can put on masks and lie, lie if they want to or not. But one lie, even to protect someone, becomes more lies. But here is the truth and only the truth. So I will say it again, 

I present you a tour around my brain.All Rights Reserved

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Look What You Made Me Do by LizzieRa17

"Don't tell anybody about this." "If you just ignore it, it'll stop." "There's nothing I can do to help you." And so I did everything I was told. I shut up. I put on a brave face. I followed all the rules. But that was the past and it's not who I am anymore. I will be loud. I will be angry. I will tell the truth. Look what you've done. You gave me a story to tell. ----------------- Unfortunately, a true story. DISCLAIMER: This is my side of the story and, with the exception of a few voicemails/text messages/statements from friends, it all comes straight from my memory. As is the case with most PTSD brains, my memory isn't very good so I can't 100% confirm the accuracy of anything, but it is written almost exactly as I remember it. If anyone reading this happens to know something I don't, feel free to let me know. ----------------- Thank you for reading. ----------------- Dedicated to Sketch, and Toto, and Dr. Worm, and Mia, and anyone else (real or imaginary) that I loved, but they hated.

Zeus by Lani_love11

Gangs. A girl. War. Fights. Love. Hate. Death. All words to describe the city of Athens. The most dangerous city in the country. But only those who have been there know that. Athens is not a place for tourism. Not many people who visit, make it out alive. Vicki, 16, has finally found a home willing to adopt her after 6 years of jumping from home to home, family to family, foster to foster. Some were good. Some bad. Some could, would, and did the unthinkable. But now she didnt have to deal with that. But she had no idea of the secrets that the friendly "welcome to Athens" sign hides. Or did she? She wasn't ever supposed to end up in the system. Or end up on her meds. She remembered nothing of her life before 10 years old. She had always knew something was missing, but this? This was more than she could ever handle remembering. **** "Wow, I thought it was just you guys and Artemis." "There's a whole world of gangs. There are gangs in every country, some even I don't know as a leader." "Is it tough being a leader?" "Some times. Especially when I have to deal with loss. But I also give some opportunities to people who need it. I've even given a homeless man a small job and it set him up for life." "That's cool. Are the Zusians tyrants. I mean were they?" something about the name doesn't shake me. It's stuck in my head for some reason. "They more are now. There's speculation that a kid got out safe and will one day take back the leadership, but after seeing the wreckage first hand, I don't think anybody left it alive," he says it. But he doesn't sound like he even believes himself. "Did the kid get out? Is it even slightly possible?" "Between you and me. I helped her escape. I know she got out. But I don't think she lived long after we lost contact. Why do you ask?" "Something about the name... It is vaguely familiar but I don't know why. Maybe it's just my meds." "You might have just heard it before." *** Cover by @_scintillas

Theirs More 2 My Lyfe Then You Think You May Know by patriciahurt12

There's a lot of things a lot of people don't know about my life.they May think I got it bad but they haven't seen bad or know what it is to have it bad.theres secrets,lies,pain,hurt,and truth to every word that nobody would understand what I went through unless they where in my shoes and been through what I been through.

Behind the Screen by VolleyballAnimeLover

The book follows a protagonist whose mind begins to unravel as they are plagued by eerie occurrences that blur the line between reality and delusion. It begins with subtle shifts-a feeling of being watched, strange reflections, whispers at the edges of perception-but as the story unfolds, these sensations grow more intense and impossible to ignore. The protagonist starts questioning their own sanity, struggling to differentiate between what's real and what's in their head. Is someone-or something-watching them, or are they simply losing their grip on reality? As they spiral deeper into paranoia, the boundaries of their own identity begin to fracture, and they realize they may not be the only one in control of their mind. With each passing day, the tension grows, and the truth becomes harder to discern. The story keeps readers on edge, with unreliable narration and distorted imagery that makes them question everything. As the protagonist's mental state deteriorates, the lines between the observer and the observed blur, and the final revelation leaves the reader wondering if they're trapped in this madness alongside the character. A chilling psychological thriller, this book explores the nature of reality, self-awareness, and the terrifying idea that what you think you know may be nothing more than a reflection of something far darker.

WAR OF LIES by Mystictales08

What if I tell you,people aren't what they show? There are a lot of people around us,who aren't what they show,they aren't how they act,they are just different, something else,when no one is around. Well,that's what our leads are like in this story.... "Everyone says that I'm an innocent and kind girl, uff these people..,"ILS NE ME CONNAISSENT PAS DU TOUT" "Nobody knows who I am when no one's looking. And one thing about me is WENN ICH ETWAS WILL,BESROGE ICH ES AUF BIEGEN UND BRECHEN" "I'm more of a keep to myself kind of person,you'll find me lurking in the shadows,observing the world from a distance. Trust me,it's safer that way" "I'm drawn to the mysterious and love exploring darker aspects of design. It adds an intriguing aura to the places I create" Read a story,wrapped in thrill,mystery and suspense,which everybody craves to unfold......

I See You by January616

Hey there folks, I'm Cody Phillips, welcome to New Orleans. N'awlins is known for many wonderful things, our coffee, music and the ability to throw a damn fine party. We're also known as the city most people believe may be one of the most haunted places in the world. Well, let me tell you this, we have more than our fair share. I know because I can see them. But, listen, don't spread that around. Yeah? It's been a closely guarded family secret my whole life. Not even my best friend knows this about me. See, I use my 'gift' in my work as a homicide detective with NOLA's finest boys in blue. Now, I understand why you might call it cheating, and that's fine. But I always catch the bad guy with the victim telling me everything I need to know and give the family involved closer. So it evens out as far as I can tell. Now just as my life is moving slower than a gator with a full belly, the worst happens. I get the call about a homicide that's hit too close to home. It leaves the girl of my dreams coming home to face tragedy. The moment I see her I find myself reminded of the one secret no one ever knew. Ever since I was eight years old I have felt many different things for Emma O'Neal, and those feelings haven't disappeared with time. Problem is now that she's come home; I find myself fighting not only an unknown assailant out for blood, my partner's misguided beliefs but my own need for the enticing beauty I'm duty sworn to protect. Damn, I just hope I'm able to fight the feelings I have for this woman, and stay focused on the case. Otherwise, I might end up losing something far more precious to me than the honor I've worked so hard for: Emma's life.

Siren's Song by beewest90

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Identity Distortion: The Perfect Family by IdentityDistortion

This family is hailed as the perfect family by almost everyone in their community. They seem to have it all: a tight bond, wealth, recognition, respect. And with the man of the house running for mayor of the city with a high chance of winning, things can only get better. Right? Well, things start taking a turn for the worst when the family's youngest member goes missing. The family tries their best to find him but then a discovery leaves them with devastating and heartbreaking news. Detectives commence their investigation to solve the case and bring the family some comfort but, little by little, things start falling apart for each of them. As old secrets get exposed and past issues come back to haunt, things seem to not be getting better and it is revealed that this family is not as perfect as they appear to be after all. With the fast-growing attention from the media, will they be able to keep it together and keep their perfect image intact? Or will people finally see them for who they really are? In any case, it is revealed that all is not well within the family behind the smoke and mirrors. They try to move on from the tragedy of their loss but things just continue to get worse for them as their whole world starts to crumble and the family deteriorates. They are in for a big surprise when they eventually realize that the people around them are not who they appear to be. It's a matter of being deceived by the people they trusted. Go on a journey with these characters as they experience highs and lows in this suspenseful psychological thriller. Be there with them as they try to cope with their grief, and also learn about their dark past before they made it to the top. Additionally, find out the flaws of each character as well as the secrets that they keep to themselves. With all the twists and turns throughout, by the end of this journey, you'll be wondering about everyone around you and ask yourself: Who are these people really?

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SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU by inmywritingera06

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Look What You Made Me Do

"Don't tell anybody about this." "If you just ignore it, it'll stop." "There's nothing I can do to help you." And so I did everything I was told. I shut up. I put on a brave face. I followed all the rules. But that was the past and it's not who I am anymore. I will be loud. I will be angry. I will tell the truth. Look what you've done. You gave me a story to tell. ----------------- Unfortunately, a true story. DISCLAIMER: This is my side of the story and, with the exception of a few voicemails/text messages/statements from friends, it all comes straight from my memory. As is the case with most PTSD brains, my memory isn't very good so I can't 100% confirm the accuracy of anything, but it is written almost exactly as I remember it. If anyone reading this happens to know something I don't, feel free to let me know. ----------------- Thank you for reading. ----------------- Dedicated to Sketch, and Toto, and Dr. Worm, and Mia, and anyone else (real or imaginary) that I loved, but they hated.