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What Am I Thinking

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I have many unanswered questions that will never be answered, they will always be asked but then brushed off as the world moves forward. And yeah there might be those people that dwell in the past wanting to know more but all they'll get are rumors, stories, lies. Seeing as I am not on topic as usual I will stay on path and get to the point. I Saturn will give you a glimpse inside my brain, what I am and have been thinking, what I want to change, what I want to keep. But most of all what I am like. You don't really know a person until you are that person and we can only be ourselves. People can put on masks and lie, lie if they want to or not. But one lie, even to protect someone, becomes more lies. But here is the truth and only the truth. So I will say it again, 

I present you a tour around my brain.All Rights Reserved

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