Before and Now

Before, I was his everything. I was the reason he would lie to his parents. I was the reason he would go home at 10 PM, and I was the reason he would be late for class. He was the only one who could make me laugh so hard my stomach hurts. He was the reason that I looked forward to school everyday. He was my best friend, and I was his. He was the one true person I could be honest with. He relied on me, and I relied on him. He was my everything.

Now, he is my regret. He is that person who I swear I hate, but secretly wish to talk to again. He is the person who can make my day just by catching him staring at me in class. He is the reason I laugh loudly with my friends, just in hopes that he can hear. He is the person who I hope secretly feels the same way about me. He is the one person whom I wish I never got into a fight with.

He is still my everything.

I just wish I was still his.