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I still unable to wake up from my illusions , I have lied to.my self again , and I believe those lies , I couldn't save my self from the darkness of my life , I fail wht is more I find my self flooded in my deep scars , I wish I have took the right decision unfortunately not , I blame no one and I have no thing against any one ,the only person who should be blamed is me , I had the chance to.save my self but I choosed the wrong way , I always stood in front of the mirror and I start talking with my self « regret brings no thing » ,,,,, « is that your best » ,,« have you. Get enough » ,,,, « you didnt listen to my advice and now you are causing destruction to us (me and my self :p ohh goood for u ;(
In fact the other part of me was right :( I am.going to be flooded more than the last time , how can I be okay again???
This time is the hardest ,,,,,, I have destroyed every piece of me ,,,,,,,
I know it is difficult for me to admit that I wasnt fear enough with #me and I will be like that for ever :( :( I cant fix the broken «me» any more
I am asso and #humans are no one #they are no thing