Ugly Flowers
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Last published Tue, May 1, 2018
When my emotional sanity tends to corrupt and every single muscle in my heart hurts
I resort to words to save my head
These are a pieces of my thoughts that I'd like for you to read and relate because we are all the same and you probably feel the same way I do
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