"Saudade is a deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for an absent something or someone that one loves. It means missingness. Moreover, it often carries a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might never return." A story in which Niall is a mute, schizophrenic teen with seperation anxiety who comes to fantasize about his childhood love, a certain soft yet hidden lad named Harry. DISCLAIMER : INCLUDES BLOOD, GORE, VIOLENCE, AND OFTEN SOME TRIGGERING TOPICS. I WILL MAKE SURE TO ALSO REMIND YOU AT THE BEGINNING OF THE CHAPTERS.