Messy Thoughts
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Ongoing13m
Last published Mon, Jul 22, 2019
"Poetry" and personal essays I've written in the past and present :)
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This is essentially me publishing an online diary. I've been pushing off publishing this shitshow since 2017, so some of the things in here will be from then. I'd like to warn you that this collection of my thoughts (and writings based on people other than myself) talk about my struggles with suicidal thoughts, eating disorders, emotional abuse and more. Please continue with caution.
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If you ever need someone to talk to, please don't hesitate to reach out to me. I hate to sound like the typical teenager, but I'm online quite a bit.
Anyways, that's enough of that. Please enjoy (I'd recommend grabbing some popcorn and being prepared to cringe)
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