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Ongoing, First published May 01, 2017
Mature
This notebook will hold the series of events that will lead me and you -the reader- to the finale page. And when I reach the finale page I will kill myself... It's unclear now but by the time you reach the finale page you will understand this. See it's no one's fault but mine, but others are to be accounted for. So as you read and travel with me, a character you will grow to judge, I hope you don't judge me harshly. Because I have my reasons. Hi ... My name is Reilly. I am a fourteen year old girl. And if your reading this I'm probably already dead, because this... is my suicide note.
(Disclaimer: for those who know me in reality, no this isn't a real suicide note it does however include some true events) (Disclaimer: this story includes raw and honest dipictions of self harming, suicidal thoughts, and life events that may trigger PTSD or cause someone to feel uncomfortable.)
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