Before I Fall (COMPLETED)

I've always wondered how it feels to die. To not feel anything at all. Is it true that pain would end but memories would stay? Is it true that dying is not the end? Is it true that if I die, everyone that I care about would care for me, too? That if I die, everyone I love would love me back? Ganun na ba talaga? Magkakapake lang ang tao sa'yo kapag namatay ka na? Kapag huli na ang lahat?

Maybe it's true, they would only know your worth when you're already gone. That's the time that they would care. They would give a f*ck about you when you're not there anymore.

I want to fall. I want to die. Maybe I would be happy if I did. Maybe pain would end.

But before I fall, I just want them to know that.. I was happy. I was once happy.