Losing hope

Hope, a word that means so many stuff. But the word losing and hope, that makes a different outcome. I really had shots of hope, but then most became losing hope. I don't really like the word hope anymore, until she came along....
People, many people, call me names, like that never happened to anyone, but they made me lose hope.

I really hate introductions
But my name, really doesn't matter, but it is Nathan.