As Long as She's Happy

Every one has that special dream they have that they never want to wake up from. Everyone has that dream that puts an amazing twist on reality that makes life perfect and worth fighting for. But... What if that dream puts you in your worst nightmare? What if that dream is being with someone you'll never be able to have? What if you have that same dream, that they're in your arms every night, but when reality comes, you wake to them saying how close they are to being in another's arms? What do you do when this dream of perfection ends up being your worst nightmare? That's what Im asking. What do you do, when you feel something so pure and uplifting, only to have it smashed by the words of the one who has your heart in their hands, but they slowly squeeze the life out of it, without even knowing what it is they hold. They suffocate you, and slowly, so slowly... They kill you, with a knife they didn't know they were holding. What is this dream? Who is the one that is cursed to have it every night? That would be I. But, the burden of this dream must remain a secret one, for she would never understand what my dream foretells.