I shut my eyes, letting the darkness of the early morning envelope me, and the wind carry my thoughts away. I took a deep breath, in then out. Repeat. I opened my eyes to climb on the barrier between safety and death. I spread my arms out like a bird and turned around, my back facing death, then I shut my eyes. I took a step back, before relief could find me a hand yanked me back to safety where I fell on top of a man.