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Surviving Yourself

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Parts 18
Time 1h 4m

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abuse abusiveboyfriend abusiverelationship anxiety depression dysfunctional emotional feelings hate livingtogether love mature realistic roommates sad selfharm selfharmawareness shortstory struggle toxic wattys2018

A young woman's story of battling depression, anxiety, and the inevitable return to self-harm. 

As the abuse becomes more and more violent, Samantha's confusion grows to question if Lincoln is really the person she thought him to be, although she wishes she didn't have to start questioning this after they moved in together.

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Lost To Darkness (CallMeKevin Fanfic) by Youtuber_01

*TRIGGERS ARE INCLUDED MENTIONS OF R*APE AND SE*FH*ARM* Nina Rivers wasn't your average 23 year old girl living in Cork, Ireland. When Nina was a baby her parents gave her up for adoption where she was put in a foster home. Nina never knew why her parents didn't want her but it made her sad that they did. When Nina was 10 not only was she bullied by some of the other kids but she was also raped by one of her older foster brothers...that went on for 3 years which fears and scarred Nina for life. She wanted to tell someone so bad but she feared getting hurt and getting kicked out of the one place she was fed and taken care of...but eventually when Nina was 14, she couldn't do it anymore and ran away from her foster home. Every day was a constant fear of humans and human touch and everyday she was in constant pain. However, one day a nice old lady spotted poor little Nina and took her home to clean her up. Nina trusted the old lady and told her everything that happened and the old lady who lived alone let her stay with her until she was able to get back on her feet. It was a hard adjustment at first with the constant nightmares and flashbacks but the old lady who she considered family has always been there for her. So slowly but surely Nina started to feel better enough to get a job and save up. When Nina was 18, she managed to find a pretty sedentary job until she got enough money to move out. After another year, unfortunately the old lady passes away which left Nina extremely sad and depressed. Having enough money she finally to move to Cork, Ireland... However...it wasn't what she seemed as all her fears and nightmares came back...Nina constantly feared everything and everyone, she feared men, she was extremely shy and antisocial and just so paranoid to leave house most times...so what happens when hurting herself is the only option she can do? What happens when she leaves the house for once and meets someone along the way? What happens next?

The 12 Steps by SRaeeg08

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Bad Decisions by Snuggleswitu

Anna has had a difficult life and she just wants to be happy. She wants to graduate in one month and travel. It's a short wish list. What she ends up getting is the most confusing, lie filled time of her life that leaves her questioning who she is and who everyone else really is. Not a writer and it's my first book/ it needs serious work. I am sure there are numerous triggers and terrible grammar which may also be a trigger. Beware. Not a HEA. I do not own the cover photo. I modified it slightly. Any likeness in material to something else anywhere in the world is accidental and hopefully doesn't happen. *This work is NOT meant to encourage any non-consensual behavior, abuse of any kind, or any other deranged ideals.* Also: If you or someone you know is struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please know that help is available. For residents in the U.S. and Canada, please contact 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Help for other countries: http://w.tt/1csPgyo.

Brøkëñ Líês (Completed) by TaylorAllen036

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Her life by IIartofwordsII

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Everything Hurts by analiciapaloma

I knew what was coming later tonight, not only at home, but on the way there. I knew that reacting right now would just make it worse though. So I kept quiet and pretended that I was not dreading when I would be alone with the man that stood beside me, wondering when it became so normal to do so. Jason and Alicia have the perfect relationship from the outside looking in, but Alicia has kept her wounded spirit and body hidden well. After another one of Jason's violent rages that is impossible to hide, Alicia is finally able to get away from the abuse though. In the process of healing, she begins to relearn what trust, compassion, and safety are once again - that is, until Jason discovers her whereabouts. All Rights Reserved © Copyrights analiciapaloma 2014 © 2017 edits by Analicia Feliciano Book Cover Design by Analicia Feliciano (FIRST FOUR CHAPTERS *ORIGINAL AND UNEDITED* AVAILABLE HERE. PUBLISHED E-BOOK/PAPERBACK EDITION AVAILABLE ON AMAZON. LINK IN BIO.)

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Lost To Darkness (CallMeKevin Fanfic)

TRIGGERS ARE INCLUDED MENTIONS OF RAPE AND SEFHARM* Nina Rivers wasn't your average 23 year old girl living in Cork, Ireland. When Nina was a baby her parents gave her up for adoption where she was put in a foster home. Nina never knew why her parents didn't want her but it made her sad that they did. When Nina was 10 not only was she bullied by some of the other kids but she was also raped by one of her older foster brothers...that went on for 3 years which fears and scarred Nina for life. She wanted to tell someone so bad but she feared getting hurt and getting kicked out of the one place she was fed and taken care of...but eventually when Nina was 14, she couldn't do it anymore and ran away from her foster home. Every day was a constant fear of humans and human touch and everyday she was in constant pain. However, one day a nice old lady spotted poor little Nina and took her home to clean her up. Nina trusted the old lady and told her everything that happened and the old lady who lived alone let her stay with her until she was able to get back on her feet. It was a hard adjustment at first with the constant nightmares and flashbacks but the old lady who she considered family has always been there for her. So slowly but surely Nina started to feel better enough to get a job and save up. When Nina was 18, she managed to find a pretty sedentary job until she got enough money to move out. After another year, unfortunately the old lady passes away which left Nina extremely sad and depressed. Having enough money she finally to move to Cork, Ireland... However...it wasn't what she seemed as all her fears and nightmares came back...Nina constantly feared everything and everyone, she feared men, she was extremely shy and antisocial and just so paranoid to leave house most times...so what happens when hurting herself is the only option she can do? What happens when she leaves the house for once and meets someone along the way? What happens next?