Burning Soul
The common perspective on life is that, we have to compete for it. They say that life is the survival of the fittest where the strongest man stands. But I disagree. Life isn't about competing with them. It's about competing against yourself. Life will always run on that operation. It will never be about them. It will always be you.
We live in this world to savor its essence, despite the fact that life is the worst engineer of problems. I am now 15, and yet I can merely say that I have enjoyed the pains and pleasure of life. I may still be young and I know that, but there are instances that I realize: why do we have to live in this world? Odd as it may sound, but we live in this world to battle for us to survive.
The world is a huge arena. We are all the gladiators, the very protagonists of our stories. And as battles and stories go, there must be the villains, the bad ones, the antagonists. At first they all seemed to scare me, but little by little I realize what they are for. They are the forces of God to strengthen me.
Challenges and problems come my way not to make me feel weak or punished. I believe they are all instruments of God to help me realize how cruel life can be, but with Him, I can make it through. We all pass this stage where there's no one else to cling to, but to Him. We will all go through this moment to test our strength, will and faith.
You see, that's the very image of living. Sometimes we overlook the blessings God give to us because we are too focused on our problems. We tend to think about them and complain.
Instead of the endless cries of complaints, why don't we wipe our tears, smile and thank God for his gifts to us? With strong faith and pure heart, I know God will help us overcome these trials.
After all, that's what life is about. Competing against yourself, to prove your faith in God .
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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