The Feeling of Absolutely Nothing

TheVerifiedFangirl

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Reads 347
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Parts 16
Time 39m

TheVerifiedFangirl

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When you get yelled at for something 'you did' you feel bad, 
    
    When your parents want nothing to do with you, you feel sad,
    
    When you hurt yourself you're supposed to feel it, but I don't.
    
    As I sit here at the edge of the San Francisco, Golden Gate Bridge I'm not supposed to want to jump off. A person my age is supposed to be afraid of heights, spiders or maybe even snakes but my only concern is if I'll feel it if I jump off or get bitten. Am I a psychopath, am I just a stupid depressed 15 year old, is it another stupid phase I'm going through? I don't know. All I know is that it sucks to have the feeling of absolutely nothing.
    
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When you get yelled at for something 'you did' you feel bad, 
    
    When your parents want nothing to do with you, you feel sad,
    
    When you hurt yourself you're supposed to feel it, but I don't.
    
    As I sit here at the edge of the San Francisco, Golden Gate Bridge I'm not supposed to want to jump off. A person my age is supposed to be afraid of heights, spiders or maybe even snakes but my only concern is if I'll feel it if I jump off or get bitten. Am I a psychopath, am I just a stupid depressed 15 year old, is it another stupid phase I'm going through? I don't know. All I know is that it sucks to have the feeling of absolutely nothing.
    
    ©TheVerifiedFangirl
    the feeling of absolutely nothing

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