sense of self
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Última publicación lun, may 8, 2017
The Third Universal Truth of Buddhism states that self is ever-changing and ever evolving - there is no such thing as self that consists of constant characteristics that only develop overtime.
We are matter that is different after every single minute, yet for some reason I cannot stop that pull - that undeniable urge - I feel to uncover myself. To discover. Explore. To identify my sense of self.
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