Online Diary

I guess it is past time that I do this. Things like this is very difficult for me. I think of other's before myself, so making this is an easy way to make myself feel even worse for fear I am upset someone. The only thing that my therapist has ever told me that has actually stuck with me. (3 years running of talking with her) is that writing things out seems to help me more than speaking. So I guess this is a way to share with you everything that has been weighting me down. If you get triggered easily or do not like mentions of depressing subjects, I do not suggest reading this. I also do not want pity voters, people who just skip though the chapter and like it. If you are going to read this, you have to read it... not just skip it. I am trying to be honest with you.