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My Only Hope (Niam)

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Parts 13
Time 29m

I love him, I love him with all my heart. But he's never seen me, he doesn't even know my name, and he never will. Why? Because I'm going to die. I'm Liam Payne. And I'm gay. It's not a secret, thanks to my step-father. He brings it up a lot, and I don't know why. He beats me, calling me a screw up.
 Defective.
A freak. 
Worthless.

And its sad, because sometimes I really believed him. He says I'm not his son, that I'm not worthy of living in his home. I wish he'd kick me out already, but he can't. My mum is dead, and has been for the past two years. Everything in her will states that I and my sister's inherit everything, my sister's have taken their share, but I'm not old enough to inherit my share, in other words, the house.

Niall. Niall is the best footballer I've ever seen. He's perfection in blonde hair and blue eyes. His Irish accent makes me melt. He's a homo, but he's not bullied for it, not like me.

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Back for you by Shanamj

He left me, I cried for him everyday hoping this was all a joke and he'd come back, but no he left. I trained hard making sure that my bow and arrow skills stayed bright, fueling my work with anger. I have mastered everything and I refuse to forgive him, I hate him. My anger grows more everyday as my sadness dissapears. The argument that started it will also end it he doesn't love me and I refuse to be a fan of his. So if he does care he would come and find me only he doesnt care and never will. These are my thoughts, but not my wishes. I want him to care, but I don't want him to find out why. He can't save me from my thoughts they are mind after all. Noone can or will know because they will send me away. My thoughts they tell me to do unspeakeable things, but they disapear when he is around, they don't like him, they are afraid of him. That's why I try to stay a respectable distance from him. My thoughts are dark, but they don't control me, I control them, I can get them to stop in fact I already have, they only fuel up when I'm angry or upset. "Why can't you tell me?" He yelled. "Because if I do then you'll leave me!" I yelled back. That is right he will leave and make sure they take you away. I covered my ears the voices they were back. "Shut up." I dropped to my knees. He ran to me. "What is wrong?" I looked at him as the voices stopped and hugged him. This was my guardian and it all started the day he came back, Came back for me.

DEFENCE // LARRY STYLINSON // LOUIS TOMLINSON by louissfallenangel

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Happy Ending Doesn't Exist (One Direction) by leta1d

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$From LA to UK {Larry Stylinson book 1} by LouisSavedMe_x$

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Wish I Was Home by sweetbabylove1991

"I can't keep doing this," he said as he stopped and glanced back at me. "You can't keep running either," I said loudly. That made him turn and face me fully. "Me? I'm the one always running? What about you? You've ran how many times in the past? You've let everyone else control our relationship. Everyone but me!" "You told me to leave you alone," I yelled. "You said you didn't want any of this anymore. You left the fucking country! You went and never even considered what that would do to me!" "I lied too Louis! You hurt me and I wanted to hurt you back!" he yelled. "Maybe a friendship is out of the question. Our relationship is beyond repair. All we do is lie to each other." He turned to walk out again and he opened the door. I rushed to him and reached for his arm. "Harry don't go please." I had never stopped him from leaving before. This time my heart wouldn't let me let him go. "You said you cared and you missed me too." I spoke in a low voice and used his own words against him. A low thing to do but I needed him to understand how much I was hurting. Note: this is a story of pure fiction. If Harry and Louis are not be together in real life then, we as a fandom, have created a beautiful and tragic love story! I hope you enjoy my work. I put my heart in it. If you're not a Larry shipper don't read this. If you are then I hope you enjoy!!!

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Back for you

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