Saudade. (n.) A nostalgic longing to be near again to something or someone that is distant, or that has been loved and then lost. - "You say that all men must die, yet I am no man." - "There is a difference between fear and hatred. You're very lucky that I feel nether towards you." - "Every time you call me that name, I have the sudden urge to hit you." - "Whatever I feel towards you. It terrifies me."