Dear Future Me
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In the beginning it's just poetry I wrote about myself or others, however this has now turned into just a place for me to ramble about my thoughts. I have trouble with obsessive thinking, and I've found that writing things down can sometimes help to get out the thoughts so I can focus on something else for a while. My updates will be especially sporadic as I'm only going to write and post when I feel I need to emotionally. I need to get these thoughts out of my head so I can be able to live in the real world. Please don't hold anything written here as an accurate representation of who I am as a person, or how I think one hundred percent of the time. I usually only write when I'm very upset, panicked, or depressed, but this is not how I am the majority of the time. I cannot stress enough that this is only here so I can get out the obsessive thoughts that I can't seem to get out of my head. Not everything I come across triggers the obsessive thoughts, and I'm not someone who obsesses over any little thing. Truly, I'm a fairly laid back person when it comes to most things. I tend to mostly have trouble with my thoughts when I'm dealing with intense stress or social anxiety. Of course sometimes I find the obsessive thoughts creeping in with seemingly random things that I normally wouldn't think much of, but most of the time I'm really not like that.
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