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This Mess That I Am (DEAR EVAN HANSEN)

MOUNTAINDEW_DORITOS

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MOUNTAINDEW_DORITOS

Mature

ben benplatt broadway connor connormurphy dearevanhansen deep deh evan evanhansen mike mikefaist musical sad treebros wattys2017

*Sincerely Me* (But Not)

Dear Lovely Readers,
This is a fanfiction. 
Right now you're reading the description and it really sucks. 
I should tell you there are a few triggering themes. 
So if you want to, please just ignore me. 

(Why would you write that?)

'Cause fuck you, that's why. Look, the readers need to know this shit, just, shut up!

I gotta tell ya, that this book is kinda fucked. 

(Fucked?)

Kinda sucks. 

(Sucks?) 

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

(*snorts*)

I should wrap this up. 

(Shouldn't have done it at all!)

Can you just fuck off? I'm trying to sound convincing. 
If I just stop writing, then everything might be alright! 

(You won't do that...)

You're right. 

If I stop typing. 

(What?!)

If I stop writing this book then everything might be alright! 
I'll stop this now, 
Goodbye; signing out. 
Have a good time, reading!



What the fuck did I just write? Whoops.All Rights Reserved

ben benplatt broadway connor connormurphy dearevanhansen deep deh evan evanhansen mike mikefaist musical sad treebros wattys2017

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You Make Your Own Future (Mike Faist x Reader) by KortaTofi

You're a massive musical fan and love Dear Evan Hansen. You admire Mike Faist and would give anything to meet him. On your 19th birthday your parents give you a chance better than anything you could imagine! No matter who you are, no matter your faults or your flaws, you can make your own future, so long as you try. Notes: {Dear Evan Hansen has only been out recently} {As you probably guessed Mike Faist's girlfriend is non existent in this lol xD} {This is my first Fanfiction so I apologise for the shitness xD}

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Rewritten. || Treebros || DEH AU || On Hold. by VincentsWordyWords

A different death. A different letter mishap. A different relationship. A different reason. But the story is still there. What if Evan had talked to Zoe outside of Jazz Band?What if they started dating? What if Zoe had died? What if secrets get let out? What if someone gets hurt because of it? What if's build up, as does pressure, for both the abandoned and the grieving. They need support, and comfort. But to find it when the world is beginning to turn against them will be difficult. !! Notes !! These are the trigger warnings: Suicide, self-harm, heck ton of cursing, a few slurs, jokes about death (probably), panic attacks, a lot of sobbing I'll alternate POVs whenever I feel like it. Connor's view has the most angst and depression. Chapter # = Evan i's = Zoe # = Connor I do NOT own the cover art. Only the text on it- credit to Astrocitos on 8tracks.

Evan Hansen x Connor Murphy one-shots TREEBROS. by EbonyShadows

Just a bunch of Dear Evan Hansen one-shots because I can't commit to a real book. feel free to prompt me. Ideas are appreciated. WARNING as A LOT of gayness so if you're uncomfortable with that I would advise you don't read. Also the cover was drawn by @citronart so check them out on Instagram. They have a bunch of awesome stuff.

His Cure (Connor Murphy x reader) [FINISHED] [EDITED] by That1fandomfreak

For those who are fans of the musical 'Dear Evan Hansen' and also has a crush on one of the charcters Connor Murphy and wanna read a fanfic between you two well here ya go. You're part of the Hansen family, Evan has social anxiety and you as well, what'll happen if you met someone who's battling through depression like you? But he has somewhat a dark emo on the outside but something sweet and caring on the inside.... I apologize if there are any spelling or grammar mistakes or if the story itself doesn't make sense.

Dear Brother: A Dear Evan Hansen x Be More Chill Stepbrothers AU by Gpuppylover7

So I found this AU and I kinda fell in love... so I decided to write about it. It takes place after BMC, but when DEH would start. It includes ships like: Treebros, Boyf Riends, and Zolana. Mrs. Hansen and Mr. Heere got married, so Jeremy and Evan are stepbrothers. They are about to start a new school year at Evan's school. Their parents want them to get along and be friends, but they barely talk to each other. At least Jeremy has Michael. Evan has... well, he'll find someone. Hopefully.

Because I'm Falling For You~Treebros DEH AU by tratieisamazing

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Attempt, Self-Harm, Anxiety, Panic Attack, Bipolar Disorder, etc. Connor Murphy was always scared of himself, so to make up for it he tried to make everyone else too. Evan Hansen was always nervous, and wouldn't stop freaking out over the smallest things. When these two characters lives collide, literally, how will their company change the other? Can each character save themselves and the other? Note: This is an AU, in the musical version Connor is not good friends with Evan while in this version he is (due to the events that transpired in this fanfiction), so while I ship treebros in the AU context this is not the original musical, you can make your own opinion after watching the original. Note 2: There will be cussing, I don't personally enjoy cussing (nor do I do it IRL) so I'll try to keep it at a minimum for those that are uncomfortable with it [DISCONTINUED]

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How To Save A Life // Tree Bros by spiritua11y

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Unlikely Lovers by LonelyArtist01

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