This Mess That I Am (DEAR EVAN HANSEN)
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*Sincerely Me* (But Not)
Dear Lovely Readers,
This is a fanfiction.
Right now you're reading the description and it really sucks.
I should tell you there are a few triggering themes.
So if you want to, please just ignore me.
(Why would you write that?)
'Cause fuck you, that's why. Look, the readers need to know this shit, just, shut up!
I gotta tell ya, that this book is kinda fucked.
(Fucked?)
Kinda sucks.
(Sucks?)
SHUT THE FUCK UP!
(*snorts*)
I should wrap this up.
(Shouldn't have done it at all!)
Can you just fuck off? I'm trying to sound convincing.
If I just stop writing, then everything might be alright!
(You won't do that...)
You're right.
If I stop typing.
(What?!)
If I stop writing this book then everything might be alright!
I'll stop this now,
Goodbye; signing out.
Have a good time, reading!
What the fuck did I just write? Whoops.
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