I'm Brooklyn, a nobody, a nobody that only aspires to be a somebody.
I find myself suddenly on a tour bus, with Alex Gaskarth and the rest of all time low. My Heroes , I could have jumped, I wanted to jump, to feel the breeze as I fell down with an impact to the busy main road below me and the spontaneous adventure before it would all be over, my life would be over and I wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore.
But Alex prevented me from doing that, the perfect timing in which his car drove past the bridge at the precise moment I was about to jump may have been the best miracle to ever safe my life....
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"I find it challenging to cope with loud noises, too be around too many people shouting over each other, or when too many people talk to me at the Same time yet about different things, asking questions,I can't cope with any of it. Its like my mind goes into overload and I get so confused" I explained to Alex, he was crouched in front of me his hand placed on my right knee, his thumb caressing it softly. I was curled up in the corner of the tour bus my knees pulled all the way up to my chest tightly.
"Everyone gets confused Brooke" he told me placing his index finger gently under my chin, he tilted my head up so he could look deeply into my eyes comforting me before he had even spoken a word.
"But it all goes away when I'm singing, when I'm belting everything out. I seem to forget about everything that's been troubling me. I don't feel the urge to want to hurt myself, I don't want to cut my wrist and jump off buildings, all my pain goes away and the only things I see are the things that I want to see, but then when it's over, everything just gets so....confusing"
"if life wasn't confusing, then what would a mystery be?"
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"Hello bitches you've reached the answering machine of Alex Gaskarth leave me a message and if your sexy enough ill get back to you" Hearing his voice brought a tear to my eye and made all the memories flood back, a small smile appearing on my lips ill always remember his cute cocky attitude, BEEP.
"Alex Im not coming back, Ive done something so terrible. Im terrified to speak, but you would expect that from me" I paused to compose myself, holding back the tears that threatened to spill over my cheek, I Noticed the heavy rain thundering to the ground around me.
I have to leave, start a new life its the only way, I held the phone higher up to my ear crying even more, I will never forgive myself.
"I love you" Throwing my phone into the lake, I pulled up my hood and set off down the long winding road, the Rain washing away the smell of him from my hair, I have no idea where im going but anywhere is better than here, I will only ruin his life, I have to get out.
"Ill never forget you Alex Gaskarth" Now to start my new life and pray that every time I close my eyes im not reminded of horror that unfolded today.