Survival Game

What would you do when it is time to visit your parents?
Happy? Longing? Excited?
Well, I wouldn't.
Instead I would cry as if i'm about to go to my gallows, or electric chair, you name it.
To say i always scared or fearful to go home is such an understatement.
It just doesn't make any sense.
Just like everything cannot be any wierder, I have no idea why i feel that way.

Or do i have one?