Dear Diary - Why am I alive?
- Reads 14
- Votes 0
- Parts 1
Ongoing<5 mins
Last published Mon, May 29, 2017
my name? that's a secret! honestly I kinda like being anonymous because for the simple fact for once in my life I can just be honest. I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a loner, I'm that girl that wants to kill herself, I'm that girl that no one cares about. Honestly I could die and I don't think even one single person would care. I haven't affect any lives, not even one if the whole time ive been alive. how sad am I? just ask my wrist and thighs I'm sure once you seem them and my pretty art work you will understand how sad I am, how pathetic I am. fuck sake I'm writing in a fucking diary all my life problems because everyone hates me.
All Rights Reserved
#426
bodyimage
Join the largest storytelling communityGet personalized story recommendations, save your favourites to your library, and comment and vote to grow your community.
You may also like
Redemption
I am Rudy. I sometimes find it hard to understand the concept of life. Or am I not looking for my destiny... my calling. Whatever it is why am I not happy? Happiness for me is an eternity away. I guess I'll never find it, it won't hurt to try though... Ima try but I wanna do it myself, I don't need nobody on my side that's gone bring me down! Read about my life, I'm telling you it's a life's journey! ... Rudy❤Complete
Behind Closed Doors
I never thought my life would be like this; trapped in a dark room and scared for my life. A blindfold was wrapped around my head, covering my eyes, making me completely blind and on high alert. My breathing was ragged and I could smell the mold that was most likely covering most of the room. My hands were tied behind my back, my feet tied together and I was sitting on the floor, propped up against a wall. I heard a slight shuffling across the room that was coming closer to me. I tried my hardest to keep my breathing under control to seem confident and fearless, but in reality, I was shitting my pants and squealing like a scared little girl on the inside. To say I was terrified was a drastic understatement. I was petrified, shaking with fear, but they were not going to know that. "Who are you?!" I demanded. If I was going to die, it would be with the name of my kidnapper. A voice boomed closely to me, "Well, if I told you that, this wouldn't be any fun." **************** Skylar James, a 24 year old girl, is kidnapped by a very well known gang who has a vendetta against her family. In an attempt to find light in her situation, she makes friends with one of the members. Logan Grant was forced into the gang at the young age of 16. He was abused until he became emotionless and ruthless, so that one day, he could rule the gang. Everything was going smoothly until Skylar is brought in. With a blindfold wrapped around her head, he instantly feels bad for her, though he cannot show it. Afraid of getting caught, he shows no emotion while others are around. Though, behind closed doors is a whole other story.Complete
Sperate me form this hell (Yoongi ff)
Dear Diary, I've been going through some tough times and I don't know what to do my best friend moved to America she was the only person I trusted but my sister. people have been bullying me alot more in highschool physically and mentally I always where my big sweatshirt nowadays..... Dear Diary, I meet new people today, we'll 7 boys to be honest I really like them they make me feel safe. BTS fanfiction maybe 18+ idk yet but for the meantime 13+ •∆• ∆•∆•∆•∆•∆•∆•∆•∆•∆Complete
The Boy Who Lived Again (boyxboy) (COMPLETED)
What if you committed suicide one day. After just one horrible day that set you off. You know, the bullies and the mean classmates who want to help but don't. And your crush refuses to help you one night. What if another woke up months later with no memory? You don't know who you are, nothing seems familiar. All you know is that something draws you to a boy who died months ago right before school ended. A lot of people care that he is dead, they feel responsible. Another boy catches your attention and you can't help but feel something for him. What if he's the answer to your problem but he won't talk about the dead boy? What if he does? Can you win over his trust and figure things out or will meeting him awaken something in you, you may or may not have known? or seen coming...Complete
𝐃𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐈𝐧 𝐇𝐞𝐫 𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝
She's the new girl, 𝐒𝐨𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐚 𝐀𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫 was a joyful child whose wings were clipped too soon. For every lesson she endured, every promise broken every soul she lost, she wears the consequences. Walls have ears, doors have eyes, and she learned too late to beware the man she thought she knew. She learned how it feels to be dead while still walking, to wear a heart that no longer beats and a soul that no longer feels, trapped in a home that seems perfect but hides a world of horrible cruelty. Her scarred mind locked on the boy she thought she could have. He was her greatest hello, her saddest goodbye, the biggest what if she will question all her life. She was the first person he showed his heart to and the reason no one would see it again. He gave her a weapon to destroy him deeply, hoping she would never use it, yet in her hands it felt destined to bruise it. 🕊️ TRIGGER WARNINGS SHALL BE READ🕊️ Read to find out more
You don't know me
⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ Not for the faint of heart, I explore dark parts of my mind and unfurl them for your own enjoyment. All of these stories are true. You don't know me, and you're never going to. This is basically just a shitty diary of my life with very few details as to who I am, Don't want to scare you off. Feel free to read but I don't really care. I'm just a screwed up guy that everyone knows and nobody cares about really. If you can't tell I'll probably swear quite a bit in this so if you don't like that I'm sorry, but this really isn't a good read anyway it's just me complaining about the fact I still exist. Actually no, whilst I did start this to complain about my life, the stories are fluctuating, as I discover I am infact worthy of love, even I don't believe it at all times. I hope you enjoy my rantings. ⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
Open up (18+ Only)
A 16 years old loner girl paints a perfect picture of her life,never had a best friend or anyone to talk about her messed up life apart from her now gone sister gets to work on a school project and get very close with her group mates than she expected and she feels the need to get out of her comfort zone until she realizes that one of the reasons they got close was to know how she got wrist marks while she paints a perfect picture for her so that her peers to think she's okay and perfect but is she really okay? Is the image she's painting for everyone to see true? And what happens when life tries to kill and finds new realizations and truth about her own life Will she ever be able to face her fears and ever open up even after she finds out about why they got close to her? IMPORTANT "Throughout the book there will be some mistakes and do correct when necessary" Please DO NOT copy any poem based on the moon or anything else There maybe some errors and everyone is allowed to freedom of speech. #thandiwegrace87@gmail.comComplete
Rise
I could only think of one thing Run That's all I could think about. they told me to run. I'm such a coward. Hi my name is Lucy and this is my story. ============================================================== Hey you guys. I'm trying to do this at the same time with my other story. Give the story a chance and check out my other story My First Loves.Complete
If I Try (Lesbian Story)
My life in ruins, this is where I'm at currently. I was living a lie, lying to people and most importantly to myself. You can act straight all you want, you can try to convince yourself that, but no matter how hard you try. The truth is always revealed. What did I do? I stroked her face, and told her she was still beautiful, then I bent down and kissed her. One of those soft, yet deep, gut wrenching, I'll always love you, but I have to let you go, goodbye kisses. Then I rested my forehead on hers and closed my eyes. I saw the past that we had, all of the memories we had together, I took them in, I felt the feelings again, I processed them. Then I saw the dreams that we dreamed for our future, I saw all of our plans that we made, I felt them, I felt the pain of what would never be, and then I released it all. I didn't realize I was sobbing until I felt her hand graze over the tears. I opened my eyes, blinked away the tears I had left, and smiled. She returned my smile. We knew at that point that no matter what happened, we would be ok.............. This is my struggle, this is my journey. Join me for the ride, but make sure you wear your helmet.Complete
Billionaire Next Door✔
I shrunk back into my seat as his head snapped towards me. He looked like his head was going to fall off. His eyes were blazing with rage. His face was set into an icy glare. His fists that rested on the table were clenched so hard his knuckles were white. As he stood from his chair so did I. I felt like the prey to the biggest predator in the jungle. I took two steps back for every stride he took towards me. I gulped again before shaking me head. "She's just joking Ace." my voice quivered as I took another two steps back. "How do I know that?" he sneered down at me, his body towering over me. As I went to take another step backwards, my back made contact with the wall behind me. Well great. Now I'm cornered. This is just typical. ............................................................. One girl moves to the big apple after her family disintegrates around her. All she has left is her one brother. Well, that's what she thought. She attends college like a normal girl and even gains a job on the side with someone who just so happens to be her neighbor. One man has lived in a house most of his adult life. He owns multiple clubs and watched as his family disintegrated around him. All he has left is his sister. A small fragile girl moves next door and he finds himself infatuated. He lands her a job... As his assistant. He is dangerous. She is sly. He is rude. She is sweet. He can not lie and not get away with it. She can make any lie seem like the sweetest truth. She is a bad girl that hasn't been caught. He is a great catcher. Read to find out their twisted story.Complete
I am Rudy. I sometimes find it hard to understand the concept of life. Or am I not looking for my destiny... my calling. Whatever it is why am I not happy? Happiness for me is an eternity away. I guess I'll never find it, it won't hurt to try though... Ima try but I wanna do it myself, I don't need nobody on my side that's gone bring me down! Read about my life, I'm telling you it's a life's journey! ... Rudy❤
More detailsContent Guidelines