Dark paradise
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MatureOngoing11m
Last published Mon, Jun 25, 2018
"You need to pop out and say hello and stay out for a little" she say with a smile like it's not hard to do that
"But mom you know my anxiety is not okay with that"
"Oh well" she says with a shrug "you need to socialize more"
That's how the conversation went it always goes like that my mom wanting me to socialize and me to scared too. I go to my room to calm myself down then I hear the door open.
!Warning! Has self harm
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