DO YOU KNOW ME?(slow update)

I love to be alone even though I have so many friends. I always feel like I don't belong, sometimes I always think they need me because I'm older and sometimes I feel like I never existed even though when I'm with my family. I just ALWAYS FEEL SO OUT OF PLACE like I was DESTINED TO DIE SOONER.

Until I see HIM in TV, he was so cute but yet he has an aura of a very mature man, he was fierce but yet I can see right through him that he was a gentle and happy person and most of all he has an amazing voice that had open up my eyes and made me believe that I still have ANOTHER CHANCE TO STAY ALIVE.

I really want to see him in person but even though how many times I HOPE and WISH,it NEVER COME TRUE, I was just fooling myself. I ALWAYS support his group and I always have time just to watch them AGAIN AND AGAIN.

BUT THE PROBLEM WAS,

DOES HE KNOW ME???