If Only I Could
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Dernière publication jeu., juin 1, 2017
I'll be honest, or as honest as I'll let you see. Last I wrote a poem, and as well as a story to go with it. I don't want to go into so much detail of all the lovey dovey thoughts going through my mind or how this was written two days after Valentine's Day, because I am one who doesn't do "being in love." I let some friends read this, and right away the responded back, "You are in love." It cannot be, it just probably a small liking towards - actually no it's an infatuation towards someone. Just an intense emotion to someone, who I have been friends with for quite a while. We are just simply friends, nothing more. Then again, I'm not so sure if it's an infatuation, since it wasn't towards a random stranger, but this happens to everyone so it's not anything I should be overthinking about.
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