Somebody I used to know

"Nicolo brushes his hand through his dark hair obstructing the light beaming on his head. The waiter comes over taking our order, that's when I decided not to look at the drinks list staring right in front of me on the table, taunting my inner self, begging me to panic. Thus reason enough to order a martini Rosso without contemplating another option, and my chances of making a fool of myself by being direct with what I like and not what I might find interesting. So, I put in place a personal strategy to get me through this, if it's worth it.
He orders dry martini while I sat back on the sofa with my head tilted towards him watching his every move while waiting for our drinks. I wanted to feel as comfortable and relaxed as possible, but the drink can't come first enough to stop myself from constantly fidgeting."

Adult content and sex. A young woman who is Socially awkward and full of anxiety faces her fears one night. The events that followed, led her to meet a man who becomes interested in her, but she is not sure about him and his interest. She wanted to run from the moment she set eyes on him but what is keeping her going and staying.
He could not figure her out because of her confusing personality that switches between confidence and shyness.

Her family life is emotionally draining and she tries to keep afloat and on top of things.
Trying to keep the relationship is huddle from the beginning.