My current love and I struggled for two years - dating off and on. During those off moments I began to realize the love of my life was right before my very eyes. We hit a bump in the road and I had to accept that the happy times were gone. Sometimes I thought, maybe we weren't the one for each other. Other times, maybe there's still hope. If only we could go back to the beginning. But time doesn't go back. I had to accept the man I adored was no more. We were fighting, and I knew he wanted, needed me to be there for him. I have no excuses or anything to say to turn everything around, but if I could be there now (then, after the fact) I would. I guess the hardest thing about loving someone is trying to understand when they don't love you back. I couldn't forget him; we'd become friends. I was ready to let everything go, but he still had a place in heart. He loved me the best he could, and I thank him for that. I began to want to be there for him, to listen to his needs and show him I could be a good friend. So I wrote.