The Concept Of Okay
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"All I ever wanted was to feel okay ya know. I mean I don't need to be happy or elated per say. But god what I'd do to feel okay."
~ g.r
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"Nobody ever got it. Its not like I wanted to fuck up my life. No, that was done for me. It just came down to two choices.
1.Don't take the drugs; end my life
2.Take the drugs; ruin my life
It was like walking in a tight rope; some days I wobbled towards answer one, and others answer two; it all just depended on how I felt."
~j.g
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