"You don't know what it's like to be my size!" I yelled at Naomi. "Me? I wish I could be your size!" "No one wants to be me, no one dreams of being plus sized!" "You dont think it's hard being skinny? I WISH I could gain weight!" I sucked my teeth. Fetishing my weight is not real. Being overweight is dehumanizing. I disgust people. No one wishes to be big. Dreams aren't for real. Thin is in, always have been. Always will be. One more thing. Wildflowers don't exist.