KABUS

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Reads 67
Votes 19
Parts 1
Time <5 mins

Zamanla alışıyorum. Yılların tecrübesi gerekmiyor. Canım yanıyor. Ömrüm boyu unutamayacağm bir yangın. 
Ateşi yüreğimi yakıyor, dumanı zihnime doluyor. Sıcaklığı gözlerime nem oluyor. Ve kırılıyorum. Paramparça oluyorum. Kalbin yerini boşluk alıyor. 
Zihnimi saran dumanlar bu sefer gözlerimin siyahlığı oluyor. Bir perde misali örtüyorum göz kapaklarımı gözlerime. Ardından derin bir iç çekiş. Ve tekrar aralanıyor gözlerim.
 İnsanlar hissizliğin, duygusuzluğun  siyahlığına bulanmış bu gözlere bakamıyorlar artık. Korkuyorlar mı yoksa? 
Kabuslar aklımın kıyısına vuruyor. Kısacık gecelere sığdırılmış çığlıklar gözlerime akın ediyor. Kirpiklerim kana bulanırken, hıçkırık sesleri yankılanıyor zihnimin rütubetli duvarlarında.

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