Just A Little FUCKED Up
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Ongoing6m
Last published Thu, Jan 2, 2014
This is kinda just to get my thoughts out of my head. Yes, I do believe I am fucked up in the head. I am depressed, I do cut, have social anxiety, anxiety, and a shit ton of problems. So by all means if you want to read on then read on. But everything on this "book" has gone through my head, and is why I think of myself. Warning : May be triggering and is very depressing. No I do not support self harm. It's a horrible thing that no one should have to go through, that a lot (including myself) do go through just to feel something.
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