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My Journey With God

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Hello everybody, 
As it says on my profile; I am a Christian.
Which means that I believe in God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. Also, I believe that God wants to have a personal relationship with everyone. I am passionate about my relationship with Jesus and I would love to write some things about it every once in a while.  I want to share my experiences with God with this and I hope you don't mind me.
So what can you expect? 
How I view this in my head, it's sort of like a blog. Instead of chapter names I will write a date. I will write about what amazing things God does in my life. And yeah, I just really felt like doing this :)All Rights Reserved

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FINDING MY KING - P1 SCREENPLAY by Dcoleman80

SCREENPLAY VERSION.... 18+ readers only ❤️ I've lived the last eight years of my life in pain. Pain that should've brought me to my knees, with a big fat "Screw-you world, I'm outta here!" Still, I refused to give up. Never did I want to be that weak, pitiful woman I was with him. Our relationship, (If you can even call it that) became toxic. I knew it was, but I didn't see this one coming. No, that's a lie. It was totally his style. It didn't surprise me at all. I lost so much confidence because of him, so finding love was a complete no no. I just couldn't allow anybody else in after living with the devil himself. It's impossible. I've lost the ability to trust anybody, aside from my family and my best friend. But never did I imagine my life going this way, and because of it, I lost all hope of ever finding love again. Living with all that destruction almost destroyed me. I knew he was bad, but never did I think he would ruin my life. He knew how important my dreams were, and still, he destroyed everything. Crazily, I knew it was his jealousy that made him do it. I've never in my life met anybody so green-eyed before. It was all about control, and I had enough. Since then, it's taken a long time in getting my life back on track. Yet just when I thought it was clear to move forward, I'm hit with more drama. Can I survive it, or will the devil himself come back and destroy my happiness forever?

How To Live, Forever Part 2 by gensharp2021

Once you read this book and the bible, just study it everyday and make it a piece of your soul and your everyday life. God says, to become great in his eyes and in the Kingdom of Heaven, you have to do and teach the Gospel. Share this link (https://perfectwillofgod.wixsite.com/godswill/post/how-to-live-forever) on social media or anywhere you can possibly think of, so people can see it. God's Second Greatest Commandment is love thy neighbor as thyself. So just say if you didn't know about God wouldn't you want your neighbor to tell you about God so that you could be saved? That's what God means by his Commandment. Show everybody that God is here and alive and will never fade away. Never be afraid to show people about God (Luke 9:26 "For whosoever shall be ashamed of me and of my words, of him shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he shall come in his own glory, and in his Father's, and of the holy angels."). Also, don't be afraid that they may harm pyou about telling people about God (Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee."). I would like for everyone to read this that is in this world, so we can all come together through Christ. So that we can live with God forever! Just share this link and show your family, friends, neighbors, and anyone you can think of who God is. (Hebrews 6:10 "For God is not unrighteous to forget your work and labour of love, which ye have shewed toward his name, in that ye have ministered to the saints, and do minister.")

Saving Grace by gillian62003

I've always been rebellious; wanting to do things that people around me don't agree with. I guess that made me feel liberated from my past, from everything that surrounded me. I think your past makes up a big part of who you are, it's that part of you that you grow into and remain like that. I've never had anything easy at all. It's always been hard on me. It's been so hard every part of me has been broken into a million pieces beyond repair. I tried to become better but turns out I failed because I'm falling and I can't stop falling but this time I'll fight. I will not go down without a fight. *book extract* He pulled out his gun from his jacket making me fire at his arm and he dropped it screaming even louder while begging me to stop. "I asked you to stop too didn't I? I begged and cried but you never stopped. Why should I?" I fired at his other leg. "I don't want to kill you, I want to cripple you. You scarred my body now I'm going to return the favor. Every time you'll look in the mirror you'll remember me Jack like I do you." Gillian62003*

Letters to God by csdreamer

I feel I should offer a disclaimer; this will not be a book of pretty words and flowing writing. It might even have an odd format with short stories, prayers, poems, journal entries, and autobiographical tendencies. There will be raw bits of unfiltered emotion because I have always been a very emotionally driven person prone to over-sharing. This isn't a tutorial or a teaching manual, or a guide to Christianity. It is my personal journey in discovering The Way. My ongoing path from religion to having a personal relationship with the Living God. The idea for Letters to God has been with me for years. At first, as a blog post, but that didn't appeal to me as much, for my heart has always leaned toward writing books. Then I tried sharing parts of it as short stories, but that didn't sit well with me either. Subconsciously, I've been working on this for years. Of late, the Holy Spirit keeps putting the title in my head, and I've finally gotten the message.

The Power of GOD's Word by cyrus_the_merciful

This is the fourth book of verses that God has allowed me to write. The Holy Spirit told me to write the first one; I was scared to death, but God helped me. I only know what God allows me to understand. God loves us and wants us to read His Word. I also love you as God wants me to, and how Jesus showed me to. God is all about love - His love. I am still searching, and when the Father reveals what I am searching for ... well ... hmmm. Until then I will sing, "I still haven't found what I am looking for," but probably, most definitely, not like Bono :-)

rose in the desert by aa809096

I will write my future story in bilingual. I want to force myself to be the person I like. I don't care if other people like me, I just care if they like me. After days of hesitation, I finally settled on the name, and I sat on the toilet thinking about the script God had sent me... I can't wait to read the script God sends me and I can't wait to finish it. After writing it, the English audio reading was wonderful. I burst into tears as I listened, and burst into tears as I finished writing. This is very interesting. I always touch myself again and again, always write dreams in my dreams. Whose life is not a dream? I am an affectionate and tragic person, and I love this world deeply. Love so deeply, so seriously. God often gives me so much information that my brain feels like it's going to explode and I'm going crazy. I can understand what Vincent van Gogh was doing in the wheat field. When you see everything in the world, dear, you don't care about anything anymore. You only live for your own happiness. People start to distance themselves from you and you become more and more lonely. God, I ask you again and again, why am I stuck in the desert? I want you to answer me, once is not enough, ten times is not enough, a hundred times is not enough, a thousand times is not enough, ten thousand times is not enough! 2025/1/5

Heaven On Earth by LGLministry101

It seems like just yesterday I was saved. Not knowing what to do next or where I should go. Little by little I had to find my way and put together the lessons I was taught from different sources to seemingly lead a holy life. My supreme happiness came from when I found Jesus. Little did I know all I had to do was dwell in his heart and he would provide me with the wisdom I need and show me the things I could only fantasize about. Things like these seemed to me too precious to keep hidden, and that's when I knew I just had to share Who He is to the whole world. Visions, testimonies, miracles and more came knocking at my door leading me into a dose of Heaven on Earth. Blue Roses for My Bride series: Book 1 NOTE I am not a writer, but I do enjoy writing. I learn as I go where writing a book is concerned. So the book has a lot of flaws, typos and words may not be in the correct order. It may be a finished book but there is still lots of work to do on it. It is a draft of my process in writing the book, so please keep in mind that things will be constantly added, taken out or changed until it becomes how the Lord wants it to be. So when you do read it, please let the Lord guide you on discernment and help you to get on the right part with him. Please keep in mind that I am not perfect and I just wanna share the love and goodness of God. THINGS TO KNOW Feel free to check out my mom's website for more info about God and Heaven at: www.heartdwellers.org There are videos, pdfs, books and more. Special thanks to her for allowing me to use her pictures as well. Special thanks to Azora, our illustrator, for allowing me to use her drawings. Check out more of her illustrations on our website: https://godlovesus771.wixsite.com/lovegodlife Content is allowed to be shared as long as it's not used for any form of sin. Please DO NOT sell this content.

Don't Worry, I'm Here [VIXX LEO/ JUNG TAEKWOON] ~Currently Editing~ by SweetRiskTaker

I have so many choices, but I don't know what to choose. Without people judging me. My Patience was enough. I wear a mask. The Unexpected came along. But sometimes I feel like everything is slipping through my fingers. I try to be happy, even though not knowing the way. The music and art became my escape hatch. They tell me I'm useless, not perfect, not smart enough. What people does not want to here. Their comment's sticking on to my head like a Post-it-Note. "They are Jealous, don't let them get to you." But still it hurts. Is there someone going to tell me the Opposite? Will my life stay in the dark? Will I see anything? DO NOT PLAGIARISE! This is my own work, which I put effort in. Please Respect. •Credits to all photo owners used in the Book Cover• •Completed•

One night was all it took: Season one by brandon61386

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Hidden Love: Twist Of Fate || KTH by Nia_writes748

Y/n :- I felt strange when it come to Taehyung. My heartbeat become a drum and my breath hitch when he was closed to me. It's strange I never ever feel like that with anyone. What is it?? It would be better if I hide that feeling..... ♡⁠˖⁠꒰⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠⑅⁠꒱.....ʕ⁠っ⁠•⁠ᴥ⁠•⁠ʔ⁠っ Mr. Kim Taehyung:- love ! Is it that feeling I felt near y/n ??? It's hallucinations it will be better that I didn't show up Maybe hide! ^⁠_⁠^ __________________________________ Both of them have a stranger feeling for eachother We can defined it as LOVE But both of them thinks to hide that feeling Maybe that's what Hidden Love Did they hide it for life long ?? Like...... Two different people with different thinking style can be together! Two different pole Two parallel line Two different time Can be together?? Can fall in love ?? Can accept that they already fell?? (⁠*⁠_⁠*⁠)O⁠_⁠o(⁠+⁠_⁠+⁠)*⁠\⁠0⁠/⁠*(⁠^⁠^⁠):⁠-⁠(:⁠'⁠(:⁠-⁠P}⁠:⁠‑⁠):⁠-⁠DB⁠-⁠)8⁠-⁠):⁠-⁠!;⁠-⁠):⁠-⁠P:⁠-⁠|(⁠*⁠_⁠*⁠)O⁠_⁠o>⁠.⁠<◉⁠‿⁠◉ʘ⁠‿⁠ʘ(⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠)(⁠θ⁠‿⁠θ⁠)(⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)(⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠ಡ(⁠☆⁠▽⁠☆⁠)(⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧(⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧(⁠*⁠'⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠)<⁠(⁠￣⁠︶⁠￣⁠)⁠>(⁠*⁠'⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠)<⁠(⁠￣⁠︶⁠￣⁠)⁠>(⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)(⁠◠⁠‿⁠◕⁠)(⁠｡⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠｡⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♡_⁠･⁠ All rights reserved No copyright ©️ Without my permission and knowledge..... There will be mature content also but I add them lately. I HAVE BEEN WARNED YOU Thank you and enjoy the storyʕ⁠っ⁠•⁠ᴥ⁠•⁠ʔ⁠っ(⁠*⁠˘⁠︶⁠˘⁠*⁠)⁠.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡(⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠✧⁠*⁠。

FALLING STARS: Ocean and Water Kingdom by EsmaNurz07

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Scripture Speaks by cyrus_the_merciful

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Scholar by WinterFantasies

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How to Find Purpose and Peace: Why Am I Here? by tacocat91

Why am I here? What is my purpose? What is the meaning of life? Why am I alive? It seems that since the dawn of time we have been asking ourselves this very question. Kings and philosophers have puzzled and theorized, and paupers and plebeians toil under the sun wondering if there's more to life. Even today we seem to be frantically running here or there trying to get the latest scoop, wondering if someone has finally figured it out. People look high and low, and they try a number of things only to still feel unhappy and dissatisfied. In my own life, the only thing that has made me truly happy and given me peace for my soul is God. He has been the chief help in combating my anxiety and depression. For me, God has been the foundation that I've placed my life around and have built my identity. I write about how I've found purpose, peace and how you can too! Jesus loves you and has an amazing plan for your life! Buckle up, and let's read about the purpose of your life and how to find real peace!

Mind of a Christian by DeltaTangoEthan

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You don't know me by You_Dont_Know_Me9374

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ Not for the faint of heart, I explore dark parts of my mind and unfurl them for your own enjoyment. All of these stories are true. You don't know me, and you're never going to. This is basically just a shitty diary of my life with very few details as to who I am, Don't want to scare you off. Feel free to read but I don't really care. I'm just a screwed up guy that everyone knows and nobody cares about really. If you can't tell I'll probably swear quite a bit in this so if you don't like that I'm sorry, but this really isn't a good read anyway it's just me complaining about the fact I still exist. Actually no, whilst I did start this to complain about my life, the stories are fluctuating, as I discover I am infact worthy of love, even I don't believe it at all times. I hope you enjoy my rantings. ⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

The Story of God - The Story of Us by Nintkol

I'm here to share my personal story about the time I met Jesus Christ. That encounter changed my life completely. Before that, I never had a real relationship with Jesus, my personal Savior. I didn't know Him, but He knew me even before He created me in my mother's womb. My life was really difficult-I was homeless, deaf, and unemployed after leaving the California School for the Deaf at 19 years old. I'll explain more later because I don't want to spoil my story for you. As you can see, I love Bible comic art. I drew this picture myself, though I'm not very good at drawing. The reason I created a comic about Jesus Christ versus Lucifer is because I wanted to share that story-not just about me, but about all of us in Christ alone. I have experienced a supernatural, divine intervention from God.

Yours Forcefully by romanticcrazyone

She - Innocent, shy, clumsy, naïve 19 year old beautiful girl who's trying to face the challenges life is throwing at her. With no parents besides her, she tries her best to impress her aunt who hates her. With a jealous cousin, she tries her best to cope up with her college life who loves to give her shocking surprises. But what will happen when she'll face the true devil? Will he break her or will gather her broken pieces of heart?? He- Ruthless, arrogant, cruel 25 years old handsome CEO of top multinational company and the King of underworld who'll ruin everything coming in his way. With hateful parents, he's trying his best to avoid them and not to kill them. With thousands of enemies, he's at his best to scare them off. But what will happen when he'll face a true angel in this cruel world? Will she fix him or will run away from him like everyone else?? ----------------------------------------- "........now you may kiss the bride". I froze. I didn't want him to kiss me. I wanted to hide somewhere and never come back. Lucifer slowly turned me towards him. He lift up my veil and pulled my waist tightly until I was completely pressed against him. Then he whispered "welcome to my world, wife" and kissed me hard on my lips. It was more like a punishment kiss. I tried to push him but he bite my lips hard. Now tears were streaming down my face. After some minutes he released me and wipe my tears and kissed me on my forehead. People were clapping. Celebrating my doom.

SENSITIVE STRINGS by theautumnversion

August is slipping through our hands like a half-sipped bottle of wine and this year for me has been the most Unhinged, deranged, yet somehow on some level chic and comforting. I found and discovered things I never thought I would and I lost some things of great meaning which also I never thought I would. This year sure has been a rollercoaster of a ride, and the most terrifying thing about this is that the year hasn't even finished yet. I've felt a lot of emotions like madness, happiness, sadness and confusion and homesick-hysterion and a flash mobs of questions posted in my mind like post it notes just screaming. And so I got tired of them. And I wrote an anthology of the events that happened to me this year and have happened to me in the past. This is a concept record. Each track is a letter to someone, or some situation where I wanted to say I lot of things... But I couldn't so I decided to let my mind and heart intertwine, and speak those words that I couldn't. I hold Sensitive Strings close to my heart because it's my first anthology. Although it might not seem like it right now, but in future after release of several other anthologies, I want to look back at this record and just laugh, because it's a depressingly funny record of an 18 year old queer boy, and it's probably things that most people relate to because unlike *coughs* some people, I don't gatekeep my trauma as unique, because it's trauma not a competition. I hope that you all will love this record as much as I do. And I hope that Sensitive Strings will keave you all to want more. And I promise with me more is always coming. I just want to say to all those people who supported me in this, Especially all of my friends, you know who you are. I love you and this wouldn't have been possible without you. With all your love to me, And your greatest empathy, I take this step further without looking back now, SENSITIVE STRINGS IS OUT NOW. Love you & Thank you. Riv.

Karma and Revenge by RainDali7

He told me I'm Karma, and he's Revenge. I was born from a sin, and he was born to be a spit in his father's face. Or should I say, my father? Nina My life after high school is simple. I party with the spoiled kids who once bullied me. I fuck a guy I know will never date me. And I dodge future plans. Until my mother reappears after five months of ghosting me to disown me, and disappears again. Left with money in my hands and a car gifted by a father I've never met, I find myself battling my worst enemy-loneliness. Amidst the wreckage, one hell of a golden god waltzes into my life and claims to be my half-brother. I believe his lie cause I'm hungry for love. I ignore all the signs cause I'm greedy for acceptance. He's had me wrapped around his long finger, addicted to him and what only he can provide. It's a dominance war between my father and the guy I'm not supposed to love, and I'm entangled in it. But I won't be a pawn. I won't ever choose Revenge. Denzel It's all gone wrong. I fucking chased a storm, unaware of its strength. The intention was to get revenge on the man who tormented my younger self and reminded him that he didn't belong in his house. I never told Karma I'm her blood. She liked the idea, and I let her have it. Driven by the desire to make her an ally against her father. The look on his face will be priceless when he discovers his secret daughter, hidden from his elite world, is my toy. But it backfires. Torture is holding back from exploring her body as I crave whenever that seductive siren throws herself on me to welcome me at night. Chasing her becomes my new thrill. Protecting her from her manipulative father becomes my mission. We're a pair. We belong together. Because I'm her Revenge. And she's my good Karma.

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FINDING MY KING - P1 SCREENPLAY

SCREENPLAY VERSION.... 18+ readers only ❤️ I've lived the last eight years of my life in pain. Pain that should've brought me to my knees, with a big fat "Screw-you world, I'm outta here!" Still, I refused to give up. Never did I want to be that weak, pitiful woman I was with him. Our relationship, (If you can even call it that) became toxic. I knew it was, but I didn't see this one coming. No, that's a lie. It was totally his style. It didn't surprise me at all. I lost so much confidence because of him, so finding love was a complete no no. I just couldn't allow anybody else in after living with the devil himself. It's impossible. I've lost the ability to trust anybody, aside from my family and my best friend. But never did I imagine my life going this way, and because of it, I lost all hope of ever finding love again. Living with all that destruction almost destroyed me. I knew he was bad, but never did I think he would ruin my life. He knew how important my dreams were, and still, he destroyed everything. Crazily, I knew it was his jealousy that made him do it. I've never in my life met anybody so green-eyed before. It was all about control, and I had enough. Since then, it's taken a long time in getting my life back on track. Yet just when I thought it was clear to move forward, I'm hit with more drama. Can I survive it, or will the devil himself come back and destroy my happiness forever?