Eternal Loneliness

"I could almost hear him, 'Des, what did you do?" in that disapproving tone he rarely used with me. The mere memory of him was enough to break me out of the blood lust. I looked down at the blood on my hands then back to the girl that lay in front of me. Her cold, dead lifeless body. What had I done?"

Everybody wants to be a vampire.
It's the new craze.
They're beautiful, graceful, majestic. Who wouldn't want to be a vampire?
Who wouldn't want the crazy, uncontrollable urge to kill? The insatiable need to drink blood? Who wouldn't want to live forever in darkness, never again feeling the sun's sweet kiss?
I am a vampire; a newborn, and it's not as glamorous as it's made out to be. It's hard not to lose your mind, it's impossible not to kill, and it hurts like a b*tch.
I never wanted this.
It might have had something to do with my boyfriend and almost his entire community being werewolves.
I would trade anything to not be this thing to be with him again.
He and my best friend were all I had, the rays of happiness in my otherwise screwed up life. But then they killed her, those stupid vampires. And I turned. I'm never going to forget the way he looked at me. From love to hate and disgust so quickly.
Almost everything I ever loved or cared about was taken away from me. My family, my friends, my life.The one thing that was left to me was my boyfriend. If I hadn't made my first kill that night, he would've been my fiance'. Now, he's trying kill me. He drove me from the last place I had to call home and is hunting me down.
My name is Orridhessa Harben.
This is my story.