WIshing Away Curve Balls
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MatureComplete Wed, Mar 21, 20181h 27m
God only knows that we all have struggles. I battle a severe case of PTSD with dis-associative properties... Depression... I also fight various hallucinations that - I am sure if I give in- could be considered a form of schizophrenia. . We all reach a point of Rock bottom . We shatter, fall apart. My pieces are many, explicit at times, but it will begin to show you a day in my mind. I am not sure what to consider this, but it will begin to hopefully open your mind to how PTSD can be brought on, & how difficult it is for those who have to handle the ramifications of battling their mental disorder.
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