At her 8th grade graduation party, Christian helped Jackie Frankel discover what it was like for a boy to take interest in her. The feeling was addictive, like a drug. Four years later, Jackie and Christian are still together... Well, not together together, they're just friends. Just friends who hook up. That's it. No matter what her friends say, that will never change. They can't be anything more. Not with their parents being who they are. Jackie is perfectly content with this. In fact, the less feelings involved, the better. Christian is just as thrilled with the situation as Jackie is, I mean, what guy wouldn't be? No commitments, at all. It's perfect. But when Jackie meets the new bad boy, Colby, who's irritating, selfish, conceited, and very attractive, something draws her to him; it's like she can't stay away. But what happens when Christian finds out about Colby and Jackie spending more time together? Maybe being just friends won't be enough anymore...
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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