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The escape

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Parts 25
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Empty and hollow
Searching for a fix 
Pop the pill and swallow 
So perfection and sadness do not mix
Fill the void and free your mind that is now destroyed 
Gulp down your pain
Allow it to take its to make you normal
Allow it to make you sane
Wash away your empty
The desire to swallow more becomes so tempting 
Fill the void and free your soul
Allow it once again to make you whole
Hide in the shadows and put on your mask
Swallow the pills no questions asked
Escape your life 
Escape your thoughts 
Swallow the pill 
Just as you were taught
Demolish the voices that corrupt your head
Silence the demons that leave your wrists tainted red
Drown your sorrows 
Escape your head
Pop the pill again and again 
For one mistake and you'll be dead
Your eyes once again hollow and your wrists stained redAll Rights Reserved

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