Am I....Broken?
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Last published Fri, Apr 13, 2018
Phil Lester a jock, falls in love with nerdy dan Howell. Dans confused as to why Phil would even love him, he's stupid and ugly and fat? Can Phil save dan, before it's too late? TW suicidal! Dan, mentions of panic/ anxiety attacks, self harm, smut (offensive homophobic slang)
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