The weather was very cold and rainy the day's prior. It drizzled a little. I just decided to leave the house on a whim. I found my self taking a bus to Bonnie's house. When I reached the bus stop that was next to the cinnabon. I just started walking. I looked like a zombie, not caring what the weather was like, or what was in my way. I just kept walking. A hour and half of walking, I had past Jake's house. It really started to pour, but I wasnt phased. I had made it to Bonnie's I just sat down on her old porch and looked miserable. I sat there for a while, with this stupid list in my hand. I have just 1 month left, I don't have my best friend with me, I have many regrets of not trying harder to be more adventurous, and I still haven't told anyone that I was moving.
There was no point in sitting in this rain any longer, even though I sat there for a long time, my mind still wasn't cleared. I got up and shuffled my way back to the bus stop. I was reading the list over and over, all of it seemed stupid. I threw the list over my shoulder, not even caring if it got ruined. I walked on.
"What are you doing out here?" Spoke a familiar voice. A sting ran through my body, I was cold and wet from the rain. I turned around to face Jake, with a cold expression on my face.
" thinking... What are you doing out here?"
" wondering if your all right?" He spoke softly.
"No I'm not alright"
"Let me take you home,Amelia. Its cold and you seem not to be doing so well"
"Ok..." I did not object to this.
-WARNING- there are are mature scenes at points. Read at your own risk. The text is suitable for mature users and ranks a fairly high maturity level at points.
My deepest apologizes If some of my grammar or words are mixed up. English is my third language behind Norwegian and french. So there tends to be error in translation. However I try my absolute best to make the story sound and look correct. Again my deepest regards.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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