Is my life Really That Bad ?

Late nights is always when This one question seems to run though my head. Is my life really this bad ? I can never seem to get things right, it's like my mama hates me and everything I do and all I ever wanted was my mama love and approval. I never had a daddy in my life it's always been my stepdad. I've known him since I was a lil youngin doh, I never woulda thought he would do this to me, never in a million years, should I tell my mama ? Or should I just run away ? Either way she gon find some typa way to blame me. I can't never get this life shit right.